Deception
From the beginning I had been aware that Will had troubled relationship with telling the full truth, whether it was about his own life or about those with whom he had regular social interactions. Many times his casual conversation let out information which was entirely at odds with statements he made on previous social encounters. And there were many times I was present when he lied in situations that didn't require it.
Once while playing a long set of snooker matches, his girlfriend at the time (he often has one handy) and been texting and then finally called his phone. He hadn't been answering her texts so she called directly. He shot me a strong look that said ‘quiet please’ and chatted with her, telling her that he had been on the phone with his parents and that's why he hadn't replied.
Will many times didn’t tell his ‘best-friend’, Jean, that he was with me, or that we were talking, travelling, or even just spending time together. When he came to Vermont with me one time, he didn't message her and claimed his phone didn't work, though he texted others while visiting the US. This best friend is a woman in New York City with whom he texted constantly, though they have only met in person once, ever. Yes, just once.
A typical Will deceptional scheme involved how he managed his schedule -- he was usually busy, even when he wasn't --unless it made him money. One of the first times Will and I had truly "couple’s quarreling" (we had a tendency to act like an old married couple when in public) was the time he said he couldn't come to an opera with me because he "might have a massage sesssion" scheduled instead, and that he was supposed to see a new friend, Nicholas, too. I had bought the tickets for both of us, with him present while I purchased them, specficially to introduce him to a new art form. Then the day of the opera (I had given him the tickets in digust at his decpetion), he couldn't "find anyone to go with him". The massage session had mysteriously vanished, as had his date with Nicholas (whom he was supposed to fuck -- he had said he might, while I drove him home from his teaching job).
Will often hid his sexual life from me, even though we shared so much sexually and I was clearly a profoundly influential psycho-social support for him. He even hid his online sex from me:
I now know Will liked to show off on live cam and he often did it after coming back from the gym mid-day or in the early afternoon. The are a variety of videos available, both ones he produced, and ones captured by his clients, some of whom I know or referred to him ( I am not a possessive client, and tried to help Will financially with referrals to my friends who I knew enjoyed hiring hustlers).
One time, since I am an older man (see discussion of older men as clients ** link here ***), another residents of his building let me in when I walked up to the door behind him. I took the elevator to the fourth floor without calling Will to tell him I had arrived. We were going to eat then play snooker, a common outing for us. I was about 15 minutes early and when I knocked at his door there was a hurried shuffling and panic inside, with "Hello? who’s there" said nervously from within the little studio. I could hear the quick movements of Will and the rustling/sliding sounds of clothing being pulled on.
"It’s me, I’m early, sorry."
More noises, including drapes being pulled open and then Will, sweating and panting, opens the door.
"Hello." He motions me into the studio. The laptop is open and pointing at the bed.
"I’m sorry if bothered you. Were you naked?"
"Yes!" Will says, "It’s hot out." and he closes the lid to the laptop. "Let me get dressed and we can go."
It was clear to me that he had been jerking off on cam for a man (or two or three or more), his hardon still shown through his hastily pulled on gym shorts and he continued to sweat in his tank top. I was completely turned on by this, of course.
"I’m sorry if I interrupted something...I didn’t know you would be busy."
"I wasn’t." He replied, now angry with me.
I knew not to pursue this, since it was clearly a sexual component of his life he didn’t want me to know about. It wasn’t until after I found the SilverDaddies profile that I realize cam sex shows for older men were a regular part of his sexuality. I don’t think he ever got paid for it, it seems to be what he enjoys a lot, which is not surprising, since his clients are mostly older men ***insert link to client types here *** and his favorite thing is the Lyric Theatre performances whose audience is mostly older men and women; it’s not a young hip crowd that goes to these shows. *** ad links to Lyric and Youtube videos ***
Will told me he would stop all sex work once his teaching started at Concordia - which I knew wasn’t true. (See dates below - add link)
At one point, Will told me he had stopped doing sex work, then in the same conversation told me that one of his regulars and he contacted each other every few weeks to see about scheduling a couple’s session. Will intially told me this man just jerks off while Will fucks the woman, but he also said at another time he and the man had more physical contact than just watching each other -- another level of deception.
Sometimes, the deception involved who and what he did for sex work, like the students Will could call when cash was needed. And there were regular men whom Will had as clients, though he usually told me he didn't have enough time for massage work while teaching and rehersing for a show. He only told me of a few men (an dentist in old Montreal,for example), but I was sure there were more and he was keeping it ‘discreet’ and didn’t like to tell real numbers to a man like me.
Will liked to claim he could only cum once a day, yet I knew of many times he had sex with clients then came and had sex with me before our dinners and/or concerts. Once he came three times in fourteen hours when he stayed overnight with me -- I can be a voracious lover. I knew he would often need to cum with his girlfriend when he stayed at her place (proves the relationship -- like social ‘payment’), then have a dinner/concert session with me, only to cum again while sitting on my face during our usual massage. The rate of sexual interactions including orgasm was a facet of our discussions that always made Will uncomfortable.
***additional discussion on deception in all social interactions ***
I suspect that anyone who asks Will if he's continuing his sex work will get the answer they desire. Will is very good at telling us what we want to hear.
The Silver Daddies/Kinky profile
When I discovered Will's SilverDaddies profile all of our relationship changed. He had been on the site during our trip to visit snooker clubs in Nova Scotia and New Brunswick. I couldn't sleep during the night in Fredericton, and while I browsed sex sites, his profile was listed for me, since he had been on SilverDaddies only a few hours before and was geographically so close...like, he was in the same room with me.
I climbed into his bed and said into his ear, "hey Kinky, I'm going to fuck you!" He protested slightly, "but I haven't cleaned out..." though his cock got very hard and full as I pulled his shorts off, lubing up his hole. I slid inside easily and fucked hard -- he came within three or four minutes, which made me cum, too.
I went back to my own bed and we didn't say another word until the morning. We have never had sex since that night.
Will was not pleased I had stumbled upon his profile and denied hiding it from me. I told him strongly that I was no longer going to pay him money for trips, concerts, massages, plays, dinners, or even snooker memberships -- he had hustled the last money from me.
After we got back to Montreal the next day, Will sent me a letter masterfully written to try to keep my attentions - the full text is in the footnoted picture here. Since I was no longer paying him money for massage, outings, travel, etc., he was withdrawing sex, but he still said he loved me. There is a slight tremble in his writing -- the fear of disclosure must have been overwhelming for him.
OLD MEN: Rent.men, Rentmasseur, SilverDaddies, Chaturbate clients
vs.
Me
Not to be too vain, but I wanted to footnote here that I'm an exceptional client for Will - I'm sure none other has been like me before or since. And this is also true for the men I've met through Rent.Men, Rentmasseur, LeoList or any other sites. Since I work and do quite well in the escort field -- you can surmise that I'm an attractive, fit, and desirable mate both in the bedroom and in social settings.
While Will's Lyric chorus or Scruff friends with whom he has/had sex are attractive, many of his clients are less so. His sex work is not like Richard Gere in "American Gigolo" - it's much less glamourous and ends up in places like The Hotel Viger. The rentmen/rentmasseur reviewers and the films he took (or the Chatrubate/SilverDaddies videos he broadcast) were with men like those below ; remember, "sex with old men is my thing."
Will can host his clients in his apartment across from Laurier Metro easily, since the building has many older occupants -- his clients blended into the background of occupants and friends of the elderly. It seemed the perfect hustling apartment since it was very small (see the pics above -- it shows much of the room) and close to public transportation. He never let me fuck him in his apartment - probably because it made me too much a part of his life. I spent a lot of time with him there, but he would not get naked for me at home and would be put off or even angry when I mentioned it.